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The Pain of Abused Children

Teddy BearAs I sat in a few, very discrete and very private sessions with parents of sexually abused children and listened to their stories, my stomached fill up with gut wrenching pain. As I went to bed on this particular night, I couldn't get the stories I had heard out of my mind. All that kept going through my head was fear, powerlessness, shame, guilt, and disgust, but most of all anger. In order to dump some of my pain and anger, I got up and started to write down my thoughts. After a couple of hours, I wrote these two poems



Where's my Mom

I hate those words, it's time for bed

I beg for one more hour

Because I know when the lights go out

I haven't any power

I try to go to sleep real fast

And sometimes I pretend

Because I know, that he will come

And he is not my friend

He says he loves me, I'm his girl

He says that I'm real pretty

But I am so afraid of him.

The man that calls me sweetie

He touches me, he makes me scared

He wants me to be quiet

He tells me that he loves me

But somehow, I just don't buy it

I lie real still, I close my eyes

My Heart is really beating

I try to think I'm somewhere else

Oh God! I think I'm bleeding

He's finished now and off my bed

He turns and walks away

I swear as long as I'm alive

I'll make my Daddy pay


Our children bring their broken toys

To fix, so they can play

But how do we fix their innocence

That someone took away

You know that they're a gift from God

To love, protect, embrace

And scars that lie deep in their minds

Can never be erased

Some kids act out, some run away

Some even end their lives

The pain that makes their lives pure hell

Is cutting them like knives

You want to take their pain away

And put it on the shelf

But if you want to help your child

Protect them from yourself


You may think that I would understand better if this situation happened to me. However, I wasn't sexually abused, but one of my daughters was.

I taught all my children everything I knew about how to protect themselves, but I still couldn't protect her. No one could be harder on me then I was on myself. I felt like a failure as a mother. "How could this happen to me and my daughter?" I thought, and "Why didn't she tell me the moment it happened?" There were so many questions and very little answers.

After I got myself together, my first thought was, "I don't want anyone to know." There's the guilt and the shame. I was scared. I thought, "Would someone come into my home and take my little girl away because I couldn't protect her?" I felt powerless because although I taught my children what I thought they should know-I couldn't stop what happened. Disgust, I was disgusted with myself and if I was disgusted with me, what would others think of me. All these thoughts happened in about one hour's time.

Then it hit me all at once! "This isn't about me; it's about my precious little girl." What about her guilt, shame, fear, powerlessness, and disgust. "Thank You Holy Spirit!" I got on my knees and asked the Lord to give me courage, help me to lift my head through this, get my daughter the help she needed and to love her through it all.

I've shared all this to come to one very important part which is revenge. Healing cannot come from revenge. It's not for us to judge. Let the courts do the judging and trust God to take care of the rest. The Lord says that vengeance is His, not ours. I'm not suggesting you keep silent. What I'm saying is that this is a shameful and despicable act which you did not cause. You have choices now. Tell someone, anyone who will listen. Keep talking until someone takes you seriously. Get help from a counselor, pastor and yes even tell the police. God is a healer, He will see you through. I know this to be true, because He has seen us through.

Our story can now help others. Use your life to help heal hurting people. Don't forget the most important part: learn to forgive yourself. God did!

Blessings, Jo Treinen

Copyright © 2008-2015 Jo Treinen

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